Oh you are falling inlove!
You know when I got there first time people told me this is what happens, you kinda "fall in love" with her, you wanna be in her presence, you want to carry a picture and look at her, you want her hugs and attention. At first I thought this was ashramite freAky talk! Ahahaha :) but then, after a couple of hours it wAs ME! Hanging pics of her in my room, singing Om Namaha Shivaya on every line I said!... Oh wow, I still remember so well our first meeting, I was called in my room around 9 maybe..? Well, anyway it was late, they come and say "Amma is calling you. Come quickly", and I remember the excitement inside my heart (and maybe a little ego kick! :)) She is calling ME?! Wow, I put on clean white clothes and just RUN! :)
And remember I knew nothing about this saint, I was not a... Follower... But I run, and meet a few other westerners waiting, like me, to get "room darshan" and I had no idea what this was but felt so... So excited!
And we waited in the corridor, and we went silently down the curly stairs, and I remember the SMILE of the people working next to her and I remember to feel her presence and her... GLOW, just before I reach the small circular room, where she seated, beautiful like a goddess, in the middle. And I remember we sat around her, silent, hiding like kittens. And I remember my heart pumping, and I remember listening to her talking, for as short as 3 minutes, with these very old couples that live in the ashram and come to see her, and you know how much I don't speak the language but we could feel her kindness and patience in her voice and ways.
This was all so new to me but I just felt so.... Special.
After some time, I am not sure how long, one of the ladies came to say we could go if we want to, none of us moved an inch.
After that we got to be hugged by this smiling warm woman and, for the first time in my life I felt what a "blessing" feels like. I remember crying my way up those stairs :)
Enjoy Amma's, it is such a special place!
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